Breathing

Rising tides of goodness,

It feels wondrous to be me finally.

 

The sweet pleasure bartered.

Breathless and serene

The event, a splash of hormones tickling me blissfully.

Dancing butterflies playing in my insides,

I feel complete.

It is no love for you and me.

Plain joie de vivre

You bring me immense felicity.

Now I can breathe.

Mirror

Well, i guess moms’ always succeed in getting us back to the track. Some my reflections and answers discovered through my talk with mine…

  • Its ok to say ‘no’ when you really want to, instead of regretting it later by bursting it all out at once.
  • Don’t do things to please other all the time. Do because you want you. Do because you feel like doing. Then you will be happy.
  • Stop judging the ones around you. Being over analytical about them won’t help.
  • Be satisfied. It is where your satisfaction ends, does the happiness n=begins and you belong there.
  • Yes, people are utterly capable of taking advantage of your innocence and your disability…
  1. of letting go
  2. of being over-understanding
  3. of letting them having their way, once in a while

however much I would like to run away from all my sins, things do have their way of catching up on you. I have to learn to respect my good soul and my bad soul and deal with my wrong decisions.Often there have been times, when I have just let myself slip over, give in to the temptations, to the sins, to the things which might be socially unacceptable in the traditional Indian culture. But the times that it has been for my sheer pleasure, its been worth it. At others, just a sense of overcoming guilt or a feeling of helplessness, of the loss of my original self.  There have been some deeds that I would never dare to put into words. But I do face them once in a while. Look at them in the eye and question their creditability. Make myself aware of the presence of a supernatural power watching over me.

Then I move on.

Not anymore.

Every action carried out by you should be your liability. You did it, because that is what you found your happiness in. There is always a choice. Never let someone else be the reason for your failure. You are the sole proprietor of yourself.

Every person has a good soul and a bad soul. The bad soul is also never bad. Only the circumstances make him that way.

Submerging

I tear up my clothes and let myself free
A sense of guilt over coming me
Bodily pleasures
That’s all we please

Then why does this heart keeps jumping beneath

Oh its so casual
Casual to us
Exploitation of our emotions and lust.

Then why does our soul cry for sympathy
I can’t trust
Can’t trust my love for anything.

A devil is better than a fool
Numbness is better than a hopeless pool
Of love that we scan through the crowd for.
Trying to be who I am not.
Protecting myself from rejection of all sorts
But being accepted in the most frivolous way of all.

Feelings

Every time the lift moves up and down,

my heart thumps up and down

Every time I hear it open,

all my senses imagine it over.

Oh and I lose my breadth

I sweat through under my clothes

 

My body is all heated up

and you are hanging by the door

You haven’t come to meet yet i want to explore your beauty to its core

i need you more

Need you to stay with me all day

Need you like fire

burning my sanity away

Like your eyes lighten up, scanning me through everyday.

 

I want to kiss that mouth. My mind is not thinking straight.

I have imagined it over a hundredth time,

and I still can’t hold you that way!!

The goodbye kiss lingered and you rushed off the other way

in a fit

the kiss conveyed all the love that stayed

unsaid

untouched

our souls are still

unbrushed

 

And the wind sways

Taking me off my feet again

When your cheeks and mine,

Your neck.

Do you share what I feel

Even if you don’t speak

Of our trust

I hope you see the real me

I love you now

Love you so much that I want to make love to you every single day.

 

 

 

 

 

Need

My lips are numb and my soul bare
Baby come and take me there
Away from struggle
Away from despair
Give me relief to my life’s monotony

Break the rules
and show me the moon
Take me away from this despair

My love is like a mystery
So tender, I will give all to thee
Words are all I require to heal
and a touch here, a touch there

This flyover is a cloud to me
This city, a cold shower
I need some warmth, so if you please.
Take out some time and come to me.